MondayAway for a couple of days visiting an elderly relative (she described meeting Billy Bragg at a petrol station in West Bay and how he had helped her with the petrol pump: "It just shows you how wrong you can be about people...").
Although it was a little holiday I had taken with me the marketing presentation I was to present on Thursday. I worked on it in the evening, and was pleased with the way it was developing. I regarded the presentation as a chance for me to convey my ideas to the rest of the NGO.
TuesdayI went straight from Dorset to the office this morning, arriving about noon (I had the morning as holiday).
Chief item of the afternoon was a meeting with the design agency that is producing the NGO's annual report. The head of the design agency, who is called Graham, was so infuriating in his refusal to follow instructions. I was so annoyed that I wrote a memo to my boss Tom D, listing my complaints (not that he will listen - he and Graham are old friends).
Carmel, manager of Special Projects, came to sit by my desk to talk. As she talked she consumed a large pot of natural yoghurt into which she had mixed strawberry jam. Her son Leo, who works in Marketing, was within earshot and looked anxious when his mother talked about her marital problems.
New PR Officer Josephine is so competent that whenever I give her something to do she does it immediately.
WednesdayA hectic day. I can set priorities, but nothing ever seems to get done. Leo rang in sick, which was annoying - I gave his work to my deputy Meryl (she complained it would interfere with the Union work she was doing).
Increasingly I am relying on Josephine, and I thought that in a few weeks I might put forward the idea that she becomes my deputy instead of Meryl.
A meeting with the all-women ad agency we occasionally use. They have been producing a number events related to International Women's Day on Saturday. Meryl sat in on the meeting, and we were all very serious and drank herbal tea.
In the afternoon a meeting with Felix S (manager of Research) and our boss Tom D. We discussed the launch of a new national award and Operations director Ryan M joined us. It was unusual to have him in a co-operative mood.
Then I went over my presentation for tomorrow. The Powerpoint slides were not entirely right, despite Meryl spending a day over them. I stayed late making corrections.
ThursdayThe day of the Management Awayday. Although I am on a temporary contract and have no real future at the NGO I felt nervous as I drove to the venue. Nervousness mixed with a sense that it was a holiday.
The Awayday was held at a hotel in the country. The building had formerly been a 18th century watermill, and the waterwheel was a working feature (churning away at the end of the dining room). Cups of coffee as everyone arrived.
The sessions were held in a meeting room around a large square table. Thirty people present, including the NGO's "stakeholders" and five civil servants. I had asked Josephine to drop in some new bound presentation documents, so half-way through the first agenda item the door opened, she handed me the documents, then silently left.
"That's risen you by several levels" said Ryan M, as if I had performed a conjuring act.
The morning was very boring concerned with the NGO "reshaping" itself in response to the cuts in our budget. Only a few people did any talking - mainly because only a few people really knew what was going on. I felt myself stifling yawns, which is a horrible experience.
Lunchtime I sat opposite Yasmin (Personnel manager) and we talked about various films we had seen. After the lunch we had more coffee and most people took their cups through the French windows, down a few steps and onto the lawn. I felt in a detached mood, not particularly concerned about the future of the NGO, so I sat on the steps enjoying the sunshine and drinking my coffee and not bothering to do any networking (one of the main objectives of the Awaydays).
To my surprise Ryan M came over and sat down beside me. He was so close that his leg and arm were touching mine. This is someone who had been rude and obstructive towards me since the day I had joined the NGO, and his closeness made me feel very uncomfortable.
He talked continually, not waiting for me to respond. He said he had plans for the NGO and wanted to work with me on some "papers". A lot of what he said seemed gibberish ("...it's like a paper aeroplane we are setting off into the air to see how far it will go..."). He tapped my thigh at various times, emphasising various points he wanted to make. Then he talked about his love of football, following Chelsea, the amateur team he plays for. Although he is aged about thirty his short stature and youthful appearance make him seem like a teenager. I was very relieved when we were called back into the meeting and I could get away from him.
In the afternoon there were updates on what the NGO was currently doing. A few departments had been asked to prepare formal presentations, and this was when I gave my Powerpoint talk. Very surprised at how well it was received (and also secret satisfaction that Felix S's presentation fell rather flat, although I clapped loudly at the end).
The rest of the day was taken up with minutiae. I hardly took any of it in, as I was reliving in my mind the success of my presentation (odd really, since I don't really care about the NGO). As we were leaving Tom D came over to me and praised my contribution to the day.
FridayThe glow of yesterday's success continued today. I was not even annoyed that Meryl had taken the day off sick. I asked Leo to write the press releases for the day, but he is not really up to the task.
The senior management team were continuing to "evaluate" jobs in the NGO. Tom D emerged from this meeting and told me: "We spent half-an-hour just talking about you and another half-hour talking about the job itself". This puzzled me, and it didn't seem to make any sense (unless they are going to offer me a permanent job, and I am not sure I would want that).
At the end of the day I was talking to Josephine about International Women's Day and Ryan M came up to discuss statistics, an entirely pointless discussion.